while the world around me spins, i stand still frozen in time

i dont know what that means i just thought i'd write it. it sounded nice.

well i do know what it means.

i'm blabbering about useless stuff. hooray for randomness.

ive grown up, im sorry

im sorry if i cant take the pathetic things you say anymore

im not who i used to be, ive realized that life isnt so bad

and if you actually try youll get through in one piece

sad things bug me now, even jokingly

im not all black and depressed

i wear what i want, listen to what i want, and say what i want without fear of what others might think

i lived out most of my life being what i thought others wanted me to be

but ive realized that its stupid to do such things

for the first time in my life im me

and i love every minute of it

yes i have a preppy boyfriend, so what

yes i have an assortment of the name brand clothes, so what

yes im actually listening to rap music, so what

i dont feel fake anymore, i feel true

true to everyone, true to myself

this is disgusting. hurricane has went to the dogs. that school has went to crap. its not worth anything anymore if you have some facsist freak running the school. nothing is going to be as fun as it should be. all the fun has been taken out of high school as soon as she came. i cant believe it. shes hitler and the school is auschwitz.

it will never be the same

this is slowly killing me.

the nights alone, the little time spent together.

the pain of leaving and the happiness of seeing

the crying

the smiles

i just want to go home.......

ok im coming home for the week, sunday night through friday.

if ANYONE wants to come see me, please do so. ill be working on my english and ill be very extremely bored and dead. i may jsut shoot myself over this.

sigh....